One of the hardest lessons I had to learn was to let go of a toxic relationship. This song is not about that.  It’s about how I stubbornly decided to stay, trying to salvage and save the relationship.

 

For a year, I watched as the “poison”, stemmed from poor mental health, creep into every vestibule of him, growing into something of its own, until it finally took over completely and started looking outwards. Towards me.

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Words lashing out like whips, dripping with venom, determined to cause hurt and confusion. I was in incredible pain and I needed a vessel big enough to hold it.

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I was sitting on the floor of my Japanese apartment void of ideas and what to do, trying to stay sane. It was then I saw colours and shapes of the music. Then, words started appearing in my head, ‘Poison’ being the biggest one of them all. And finally, the floodgates opened and everything came frantically pouring out of me. That is what you’re hearing.

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*Now, years later, i realise that the colours and words i saw while sat on the floor of my japanese apartment was my emotion-colour synaesthesia, begging to be heard. 

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Performed by Zoe

Music and lyrics by Zoe

Produced by Evanturetime